Well, last night I ended up talking on the phone to a really sweet guy for 3 hours :)
Had lots of laughs :)
He really is a great guy :)
Today, I woke up..with a worse crick in my next than the day before...but it eventually eased up.
I drank a glass of water and started doing some exercises...then I hear a God-awful loud truck coming up the road... hmmmm I wonder who it could be... ahhh that's right, someone was supposed to come up here to help me do some kind of a test for a job I'm trying to get.
After that's done, I facebook for awhile...then go outside and watch as they ( him and my dad ) take the gas tank off of my car. My poor precious car :( When the gas tank came off...it really set in that my car was dead. :( My dad then went down to get the trailer on the truck and bring it up there for us to put on it.
While he was down there...I started saying good-bye to my car. She had been sooo good to me. I never should have let the ex drive it...she would still be here if I hadn't :( As I walked around the car telling her how much I loved her, I started to get teary eyed. I never thought I would have gotten so attached to a car. But she was great. And I wanted her to know that and to know that I would never forget her. Then I took off some of the paint that was coming off from the wreck and put it in my pocket to put in a safe place later for memories sake.
Sigh
Dad got the trailer up to the house and we loaded her up. Chained her down..then we ate lunch. And after that he took her off to the junk yard :(
I'm going to miss her...always.
After that, I facebooked some more....cause I have nothing else to do....
My mom came home and we talked some about something that was bothering me.
Then my sister brought some food over for supper.
We ate and then sat and talked for awhile...
Then her, my mom and myself took a walk down to my aunt's house.
My mom stayed to talk and me and Barbara headed into the woods on a hike.
It was great until a spider when down my shirt! yikes! It gave me the heeby-geebies!
Then as I was flicking it out of my shirt...it got squished on my finger...ewwwww so gross!
I hate spiders!!!
As Barbara laughed at me we continued out walk through the woods and then out the driveway and all the way down the dirt road to the hwy...then headed back up the hill and walked all the way back down to my aunts house and around her house to the garden and then back up to her house to get mom. Then we talked for a few and headed back up to the house. We probably walked a total of a mile and a half or so...maybe 2 miles.
It felt soooo good to walk though!! I love it! I used to hate it, but if feels so good now :) I'll probably start walking everyday now.
Anywho...now I'm listening to the MP3 player and texting that really great guy I was telling you about. :)
Maybe I'll just call him in a few too :)
Toodles!!! :)
Thursday, April 7, 2011
Wednesday, April 6, 2011
Calories
Well... Today is my first full day of counting calories.
If I want to stay at my current weight (which I don't) I need to take in 1881 calories per day. That is calculated on me being Lightly Active.
If my goal is to lose weight by burning off excess body fat, I need to aim to eat 500 fewer calories per day than my daily caloric needs, and maintain or increase my exercise activity.
That would make me taking in 1381 calories per day.
So...for me, I'm going to start out slower so I don't hurt myself...and aim at 1600 calories per day...and keep being Lighly Active... then in a couple of weeks, once I get used to the counting calories, I will aim for 1400 calories per day... and eventually maybe even get myself down to the 1200 calorie per day guide line.
It is suggested that you do not go under 1200 calories per day.
However, when I find myself losing the inches I want to, I will stick to whatever calories per day I am at.
Everyone is different, so finding the amount of calories we need each day is going to be different...it's all trial and error.
So, wish me luck :)
So far today I've had 1422 calories. That's pretty good starting out. :) I'm excited.
I've had a pretty great day. I got to talk to my bestest friend in the entire world today on the phone!!! :)
It's very exciting for me, esp since he's in Germany right now. He should be home in 3 weeks! I can't wait!!! :) We're already starting a "Bucket List" as we call it. I can't wait! :)
Talking to him today was the highlight of my day...heck of my week...oh why not..the highlight of my year so far! The only thing that's gonna beat that is when I get to see him as soon as he gets back and throw my arms around his neck and give him a great big hug! :)
Well....that's really all I've got for today...
Toodles! :)
If I want to stay at my current weight (which I don't) I need to take in 1881 calories per day. That is calculated on me being Lightly Active.
If my goal is to lose weight by burning off excess body fat, I need to aim to eat 500 fewer calories per day than my daily caloric needs, and maintain or increase my exercise activity.
That would make me taking in 1381 calories per day.
So...for me, I'm going to start out slower so I don't hurt myself...and aim at 1600 calories per day...and keep being Lighly Active... then in a couple of weeks, once I get used to the counting calories, I will aim for 1400 calories per day... and eventually maybe even get myself down to the 1200 calorie per day guide line.
It is suggested that you do not go under 1200 calories per day.
However, when I find myself losing the inches I want to, I will stick to whatever calories per day I am at.
Everyone is different, so finding the amount of calories we need each day is going to be different...it's all trial and error.
So, wish me luck :)
So far today I've had 1422 calories. That's pretty good starting out. :) I'm excited.
I've had a pretty great day. I got to talk to my bestest friend in the entire world today on the phone!!! :)
It's very exciting for me, esp since he's in Germany right now. He should be home in 3 weeks! I can't wait!!! :) We're already starting a "Bucket List" as we call it. I can't wait! :)
Talking to him today was the highlight of my day...heck of my week...oh why not..the highlight of my year so far! The only thing that's gonna beat that is when I get to see him as soon as he gets back and throw my arms around his neck and give him a great big hug! :)
Well....that's really all I've got for today...
Toodles! :)
Tuesday, April 5, 2011
Plans
Well, today I had a rather blah day....
I took Mom to Kim's to watch Jace....
Then I went down to the old house to see if Mark had left the Separation Agreement papers there , and signed them.....
When I got there, I couldn't find them..... till I started to leave...
He had nailed them to the wall...after he ripped them , all 3 copies, into 4 parts each....along with a card I had gave him and another note saying that I loved him.....
I think he was trying to prove a point...or he was just being childish and a coward.
So....being the nice person I am...I decided to leave him a note :) In the same spot the papers were....
I was nice don't worry....I pretty much told him I done my research and by law I do NOT have to have a Separation Agreement...so I'd see him next year...but even then, I don't have to be present for the judge to finalize a divorce :) So I told him good riddens.
*sigh*
Now that part of my life is over with...I can breathe a sigh of relief....well...almost... still got one thing that's bothering me....but I'm sure it will turn out the way I intend for it to. I pray it does anyway.
I have done some research on burning fat and I have found a few workouts I'm going to incorporate into my week as well as some cardio (walking / jogging) a few times a week.
I hope to see results sooner rather than later...so wish me luck!!! :)
I just have to stick to it and I know it will happen for me :)
Heck, maybe I'll even surpass my goal :)
Wouldn't that be something :)
I'm getting excited :) Only 3 more weeks and my bestest friend in the entire world should be home. I <3 him :) He has always been there for me , no matter what. He is someone that I know I can rely on forever. After all the crap we've been through, we are still best friends :) He is such an amazing guy :) Very amazing he is :) I don't know what I would do without him....
Well...for dinner tonight I had baked ham slices, peas and roasted garlic 'n herb potatoes :) yum.
I like to cook :)
I'm also thinking about taking my friend's advice and starting up my hobby again.... She gave me the idea to start a Photography album/blog. I'm to take 1 picture everyday and post it... then I'll have something to look back on and see how my skills have progressed :) I'm excited about all the changes I'm making in my
life right now, I just hope to keep myself motivated :) These are things I really want in my life :)
Wish me luck!!!
Toodles!
I took Mom to Kim's to watch Jace....
Then I went down to the old house to see if Mark had left the Separation Agreement papers there , and signed them.....
When I got there, I couldn't find them..... till I started to leave...
He had nailed them to the wall...after he ripped them , all 3 copies, into 4 parts each....along with a card I had gave him and another note saying that I loved him.....
I think he was trying to prove a point...or he was just being childish and a coward.
So....being the nice person I am...I decided to leave him a note :) In the same spot the papers were....
I was nice don't worry....I pretty much told him I done my research and by law I do NOT have to have a Separation Agreement...so I'd see him next year...but even then, I don't have to be present for the judge to finalize a divorce :) So I told him good riddens.
*sigh*
Now that part of my life is over with...I can breathe a sigh of relief....well...almost... still got one thing that's bothering me....but I'm sure it will turn out the way I intend for it to. I pray it does anyway.
I have done some research on burning fat and I have found a few workouts I'm going to incorporate into my week as well as some cardio (walking / jogging) a few times a week.
I hope to see results sooner rather than later...so wish me luck!!! :)
I just have to stick to it and I know it will happen for me :)
Heck, maybe I'll even surpass my goal :)
Wouldn't that be something :)
I'm getting excited :) Only 3 more weeks and my bestest friend in the entire world should be home. I <3 him :) He has always been there for me , no matter what. He is someone that I know I can rely on forever. After all the crap we've been through, we are still best friends :) He is such an amazing guy :) Very amazing he is :) I don't know what I would do without him....
Well...for dinner tonight I had baked ham slices, peas and roasted garlic 'n herb potatoes :) yum.
I like to cook :)
I'm also thinking about taking my friend's advice and starting up my hobby again.... She gave me the idea to start a Photography album/blog. I'm to take 1 picture everyday and post it... then I'll have something to look back on and see how my skills have progressed :) I'm excited about all the changes I'm making in my
life right now, I just hope to keep myself motivated :) These are things I really want in my life :)
Wish me luck!!!
Toodles!
Monday, April 4, 2011
Bored
Today has been...well...a very boring day for me.
I woke up....got on Facebook as usual...started talking to a couple friends...then decided it was time to go take a shower....
Before I even got up, I heard a loud noise.... I thought to myself "oh no"..."turtles fell off " ( I had them sitting in a tub ontop of the trash can ....they usually stay in the bathtub..but I was going to take a shower so I had took them out earlier)
I walk in there...and see the tub still sitting there...and one of the turtles was starting to come over the edge of it. lol I just started laughing.. I almost had an escapee! I ran to get my camera and took a quick picture.
I walk over to the tub and the turtle slides back down...it was Squirt...always trying to get loose that one lol...
Then I take my shower...and go back to chatting with my friends.
After about 30 minutes I dry my hair ( I know I'm so detailed in my blogging :P )
and then decide to go outside and take some updated pictures of myself :)
It's very beautiful outside today...but...very windy too...so my hair was blowing all over the place.
Took some pictures around a cherry blossom tree, even put one of the blooms in my hair :)
after my little photo session, I come back inside...and chat some more lol...
I start listening to one of my favorite musicians...Michael Tolcher. :) He's awesome. Got a great attitude to go with his talent. you should check him out.
http://www.michaeltolcher.com/
but as I continue to sit there.......I start getting depressed.... lonely really....
I start thinking about ...well you know who....and how he is apparently happy without me in his life.... and that kinda hurts.. i don't want him to be happy right now..I know that's selfish...but I'm the one that went through all the crap, i'm supposed to be the one that's happy...not him.
*pouts*
I try to send a yahoo chat message to my best friend of all time, but he's not online ....
so I call one of my guy friends....just to hear someone's voice...to hopefully get my mind off him and my loneliness.....but after a few minutes...he hurts my feelings and I hang up on him.
He tries to call back , but I don't answer..... he sends a text message...I still don't answer...and he facebook chat's me...I don't respond... I want him to realize he hurt my feelings...and when a girl's feeling down, you don't say stuff to upset her no matter if you're joking or not...it's just not right.
After awhile, My bestie gets online and we start chatting...he cheers me up :) as always :) I don't know what I would ever do without him. It's like he's my other half...that's half way across the world right now thanks to the United States Air Force.
He should be coming home in 3 weeks though! I can't wait!!!! :) I soooo need a hug from him after all that I've been through!
I start getting hungry..so I go make a quick lunch.....and start planning what's for supper.
And now...I'm just blogging..... I was planning to write 2 blogs per day...but it appears as if I've cut back to just 1 per day.....but that's okay...more to write about in them lol....
Oh by the way! Michael Tolcher will be in Boone, NC on May 6th.... Charlotte, NC on May 7th and Asheville, NC on May 8th for anyone interested in checking him out! I highly recommend it!
Toodles!!! :)
I woke up....got on Facebook as usual...started talking to a couple friends...then decided it was time to go take a shower....
Before I even got up, I heard a loud noise.... I thought to myself "oh no"..."turtles fell off " ( I had them sitting in a tub ontop of the trash can ....they usually stay in the bathtub..but I was going to take a shower so I had took them out earlier)
I walk in there...and see the tub still sitting there...and one of the turtles was starting to come over the edge of it. lol I just started laughing.. I almost had an escapee! I ran to get my camera and took a quick picture.
I walk over to the tub and the turtle slides back down...it was Squirt...always trying to get loose that one lol...
Then I take my shower...and go back to chatting with my friends.
After about 30 minutes I dry my hair ( I know I'm so detailed in my blogging :P )
and then decide to go outside and take some updated pictures of myself :)
It's very beautiful outside today...but...very windy too...so my hair was blowing all over the place.
Took some pictures around a cherry blossom tree, even put one of the blooms in my hair :)
after my little photo session, I come back inside...and chat some more lol...
I start listening to one of my favorite musicians...Michael Tolcher. :) He's awesome. Got a great attitude to go with his talent. you should check him out.
http://www.michaeltolcher.com/
but as I continue to sit there.......I start getting depressed.... lonely really....
I start thinking about ...well you know who....and how he is apparently happy without me in his life.... and that kinda hurts.. i don't want him to be happy right now..I know that's selfish...but I'm the one that went through all the crap, i'm supposed to be the one that's happy...not him.
*pouts*
I try to send a yahoo chat message to my best friend of all time, but he's not online ....
so I call one of my guy friends....just to hear someone's voice...to hopefully get my mind off him and my loneliness.....but after a few minutes...he hurts my feelings and I hang up on him.
He tries to call back , but I don't answer..... he sends a text message...I still don't answer...and he facebook chat's me...I don't respond... I want him to realize he hurt my feelings...and when a girl's feeling down, you don't say stuff to upset her no matter if you're joking or not...it's just not right.
After awhile, My bestie gets online and we start chatting...he cheers me up :) as always :) I don't know what I would ever do without him. It's like he's my other half...that's half way across the world right now thanks to the United States Air Force.
He should be coming home in 3 weeks though! I can't wait!!!! :) I soooo need a hug from him after all that I've been through!
I start getting hungry..so I go make a quick lunch.....and start planning what's for supper.
And now...I'm just blogging..... I was planning to write 2 blogs per day...but it appears as if I've cut back to just 1 per day.....but that's okay...more to write about in them lol....
Oh by the way! Michael Tolcher will be in Boone, NC on May 6th.... Charlotte, NC on May 7th and Asheville, NC on May 8th for anyone interested in checking him out! I highly recommend it!
Toodles!!! :)
Sunday, April 3, 2011
Beautiful Day
This morning, I soooo did not want to get out of bed...
But I did... got the boys and myself ready to go to church.
Church was great today :) And it was even better that is was so sunny today...I love it when the sun shines though the windows of the church, makes everything seem so light and airy :)
Braden however, was throwing fruit loops in the air...ugh...
Heath didn't want to sit still...that is until he fell asleep on my Mom.
Braden then kept whinning that he was tired and was ready to leave.
They love Sunday school...but are not fond of the preaching hour.
After that , we came home...had lunch...the boys went to play outside.
Not even 5 minutes passes...Braden comes screaming into the house... he has a splinter in his hand about 1/2 an inch long.
I pull part of it out with my fingers...but the other part I have to use tweezers.... that's not working too well... so I have to cut the skin a little bit to get the tweezers down in there...
Braden is crying, "Mama be careful..Mama be careful"
It's cute ... but it's gotta be done.
After about 7 minutes of working on it...it finally comes out.
Put some medicine and a bandaid on it..he goes and lays on the couch..and falls asleep.
Heath is in the chair playing his DS. I swear he's addicted to that thing.
So now....I'm chatting with some friends in Germany...and now I'm blogging :)
Can't wait till the end of the month! My best friend in the whole world will be home!!!!!! :)
It's been a year and a 5 months since I've seen him!
I've missed him so much!
Gotta take the boys to Justin in a little less than 2 hours... then I won't see them for 13 days! :(
But they need a weekend to do something special with their daddy... plus that'll give me time to find some friends and go out and have some me time :)
Well, I'm gonna go and enjoy this beautiful day God has given us!
Until later! :)
But I did... got the boys and myself ready to go to church.
Church was great today :) And it was even better that is was so sunny today...I love it when the sun shines though the windows of the church, makes everything seem so light and airy :)
Braden however, was throwing fruit loops in the air...ugh...
Heath didn't want to sit still...that is until he fell asleep on my Mom.
Braden then kept whinning that he was tired and was ready to leave.
They love Sunday school...but are not fond of the preaching hour.
After that , we came home...had lunch...the boys went to play outside.
Not even 5 minutes passes...Braden comes screaming into the house... he has a splinter in his hand about 1/2 an inch long.
I pull part of it out with my fingers...but the other part I have to use tweezers.... that's not working too well... so I have to cut the skin a little bit to get the tweezers down in there...
Braden is crying, "Mama be careful..Mama be careful"
It's cute ... but it's gotta be done.
After about 7 minutes of working on it...it finally comes out.
Put some medicine and a bandaid on it..he goes and lays on the couch..and falls asleep.
Heath is in the chair playing his DS. I swear he's addicted to that thing.
So now....I'm chatting with some friends in Germany...and now I'm blogging :)
Can't wait till the end of the month! My best friend in the whole world will be home!!!!!! :)
It's been a year and a 5 months since I've seen him!
I've missed him so much!
Gotta take the boys to Justin in a little less than 2 hours... then I won't see them for 13 days! :(
But they need a weekend to do something special with their daddy... plus that'll give me time to find some friends and go out and have some me time :)
Well, I'm gonna go and enjoy this beautiful day God has given us!
Until later! :)
Saturday, April 2, 2011
I've seen better days....
yeah the title of this has nothing to do with me ... well not in a literal sense at the moment...
I'm just singing that song in my head lol....
mostly because.....
I will be SEEING better days in my future!!! :)
God is good!
So.... Facebook was being sooooo retarded last night so I was unable to post much of anything, so I decided to wait and just do my blog this morning that way I could post it of FB.
Yesterday was eventful.....
First I talk to my old Land Lord...which is an old family friend for the past like 21 years...
He tells me about a job offer he heard about in Hendersonville...thought I'd be interested so he talked to the company that's hiring.
It's a receptionist job, which is something I've always wanted to have.
I ask him where it is....... dun dun dun!!! It's at Family Medical ....
my jaw drops....and suddenly I'm thinking NO WAY!!!
Reason being.... That's the DR office Mark goes to.... I don't really wanna put myself in a position to run into him alot....soooo...I'll pass...but thanks anyway. :)
After that I go to Staples and get 3 copies of our Separation Agreement printed out.
I went to Auto Zone to return something and then to Lowes...then after that I went to Chili's to meet Melissa for lunch. Had a great lunch :) then I went to the house...
When I get there I put everything I'm leaving for him on the kitchen table...then I start going back through the house to make sure I've gotten everything of mine and the boys...
and guess what I find......
He's got 3 pictures of him and his ex wife..... seriously??? Don't you think if he hated her as much as he said he did that he wouldn't keep pictures of her and him together?!?!
Not to mention..even before I told him I was leaving...he called her!!! And started to cry to her that I was
leaving!!!
Sounds fishy,.......very fishy...and I'm not the one who brought it to my attention...but you know what...I don't give a crap....let him go back to his ex wife! I hope he's happy... I know he loves her still... we broke up over that the 1st time before we even got married! He said he still loved her and couldn't get over her....
then all of a sudden he's over her and he doesn't love her anymore?? bull crap! He was just trying to cover his butt!
Anywho! after that I go home...and then an hour later I go get my boys :)
My boys have never been happier!!! They love us living up here at my Mom's. They never liked Mark...they did try and I'm thankful for that....but I'm so happy and at peace that they are so happy now :)
The boys are having a blast today with their cousins who spent the night with them last night. I'm in a house full of boys today!!! AHHH!!! lol
We had pancakes for breakfast :)
Talked to Justin yesterday...he's wanting the boys for a weekend ...next weekend, which is fine with me, he hasn't had them in awhile on a weekend...
Wonder what I can get myself into :) lol
Anyway...enough blogging for this morning....
Have a great sun shiny day everyone!
I'm just singing that song in my head lol....
mostly because.....
I will be SEEING better days in my future!!! :)
God is good!
So.... Facebook was being sooooo retarded last night so I was unable to post much of anything, so I decided to wait and just do my blog this morning that way I could post it of FB.
Yesterday was eventful.....
First I talk to my old Land Lord...which is an old family friend for the past like 21 years...
He tells me about a job offer he heard about in Hendersonville...thought I'd be interested so he talked to the company that's hiring.
It's a receptionist job, which is something I've always wanted to have.
I ask him where it is....... dun dun dun!!! It's at Family Medical ....
my jaw drops....and suddenly I'm thinking NO WAY!!!
Reason being.... That's the DR office Mark goes to.... I don't really wanna put myself in a position to run into him alot....soooo...I'll pass...but thanks anyway. :)
After that I go to Staples and get 3 copies of our Separation Agreement printed out.
I went to Auto Zone to return something and then to Lowes...then after that I went to Chili's to meet Melissa for lunch. Had a great lunch :) then I went to the house...
When I get there I put everything I'm leaving for him on the kitchen table...then I start going back through the house to make sure I've gotten everything of mine and the boys...
and guess what I find......
He's got 3 pictures of him and his ex wife..... seriously??? Don't you think if he hated her as much as he said he did that he wouldn't keep pictures of her and him together?!?!
Not to mention..even before I told him I was leaving...he called her!!! And started to cry to her that I was
leaving!!!
Sounds fishy,.......very fishy...and I'm not the one who brought it to my attention...but you know what...I don't give a crap....let him go back to his ex wife! I hope he's happy... I know he loves her still... we broke up over that the 1st time before we even got married! He said he still loved her and couldn't get over her....
then all of a sudden he's over her and he doesn't love her anymore?? bull crap! He was just trying to cover his butt!
Anywho! after that I go home...and then an hour later I go get my boys :)
My boys have never been happier!!! They love us living up here at my Mom's. They never liked Mark...they did try and I'm thankful for that....but I'm so happy and at peace that they are so happy now :)
The boys are having a blast today with their cousins who spent the night with them last night. I'm in a house full of boys today!!! AHHH!!! lol
We had pancakes for breakfast :)
Talked to Justin yesterday...he's wanting the boys for a weekend ...next weekend, which is fine with me, he hasn't had them in awhile on a weekend...
Wonder what I can get myself into :) lol
Anyway...enough blogging for this morning....
Have a great sun shiny day everyone!
Friday, April 1, 2011
Seriously??
wow...seriously??
Now...the "soon to be ex husband" is accusing me of adultry....... WHAT THE HECK!?
Has he gone insane!?
I can not wait for all this crap to be over with!
I finished the Separation Papers and Property Settlement papers early this morning around 12....only after 2 hours of typing everything up and proof reading it..... only to email it to him to proof read and him not agree with it... ugh... so i changed what was necessary for him to sign it...
I plan to go print legal copies out today and get them signed.... then...bon voyage for a year!!! woo hoo!
I'm so ready to get on with my life it's not even funny.
I can not wait to see what God has in store for me! :) I am escatic!
I can't wait to start going out with friends again and just having some fun and me time. :) ( except for on the weekends when I have my boys of course. )
Hoping to sell our wedding rings very soon...I need some $$$!!!
I want to have a yard sale too... don't know when that's gonna be yet.
Can't wait till lunch time. Gonna meet with Melissa for lunch at Chili's :)
Well...off to dry my hair :)
Toodles!
Now...the "soon to be ex husband" is accusing me of adultry....... WHAT THE HECK!?
Has he gone insane!?
I can not wait for all this crap to be over with!
I finished the Separation Papers and Property Settlement papers early this morning around 12....only after 2 hours of typing everything up and proof reading it..... only to email it to him to proof read and him not agree with it... ugh... so i changed what was necessary for him to sign it...
I plan to go print legal copies out today and get them signed.... then...bon voyage for a year!!! woo hoo!
I'm so ready to get on with my life it's not even funny.
I can not wait to see what God has in store for me! :) I am escatic!
I can't wait to start going out with friends again and just having some fun and me time. :) ( except for on the weekends when I have my boys of course. )
Hoping to sell our wedding rings very soon...I need some $$$!!!
I want to have a yard sale too... don't know when that's gonna be yet.
Can't wait till lunch time. Gonna meet with Melissa for lunch at Chili's :)
Well...off to dry my hair :)
Toodles!
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Feeling better
Just a quick update.
Mark sent me a message, and we discussed the bills. He is going to be paying them :)
*WHEW!!!* That is such a HUGE stress relief!!!
Maybe he does have a heart in there...
He even said if he found anything of mine at the house this weekend when he goes to get his stuff, he will set it aside for me.
I feel sooo much better! Thank you GOD for working things out!!!
God is good!!! :) All the time :)
Mark sent me a message, and we discussed the bills. He is going to be paying them :)
*WHEW!!!* That is such a HUGE stress relief!!!
Maybe he does have a heart in there...
He even said if he found anything of mine at the house this weekend when he goes to get his stuff, he will set it aside for me.
I feel sooo much better! Thank you GOD for working things out!!!
God is good!!! :) All the time :)
Frustrated
I'm so frustrated....
It appears the ex husband is going to make me pay for the bills that are in my name, even though he is the one still at the house. UGH!
He cancelled my debit card and everything!
He is such an ass!
He better pay for these bills.
On another note........
I got a change of address form filled out today, as well as cancelling the cable service to the old house.
I'm kinda sick on my stomach right now.
My face feels flush.
My nerves are getting the best of me.
Someone calm me down......
This blog apparently is just me venting.....
Anyone have any advice to help me through all this???
I was fine until about 30 minutes ago....
I'm becoming impatient with myself and my weight loss hopes.....
I want to be able to see results fast....
I feel like I'm not making any progress...
The only progress I've made is not eating as much....I'm eating like once a day now... I just don't feel all that hungry since I've been taking the Green T pills.
My sister, who is a Beach Body coach says that's worse for me...... says I'm not gonna lose weight that way....
IDK
I'm just so....well so..... UGH!
Help me please.............. words of encouragement....something!
Something to get my mind off all this garbage! haha..no pun intended.... ( Mark is a garbage man )
It appears the ex husband is going to make me pay for the bills that are in my name, even though he is the one still at the house. UGH!
He cancelled my debit card and everything!
He is such an ass!
He better pay for these bills.
On another note........
I got a change of address form filled out today, as well as cancelling the cable service to the old house.
I'm kinda sick on my stomach right now.
My face feels flush.
My nerves are getting the best of me.
Someone calm me down......
This blog apparently is just me venting.....
Anyone have any advice to help me through all this???
I was fine until about 30 minutes ago....
I'm becoming impatient with myself and my weight loss hopes.....
I want to be able to see results fast....
I feel like I'm not making any progress...
The only progress I've made is not eating as much....I'm eating like once a day now... I just don't feel all that hungry since I've been taking the Green T pills.
My sister, who is a Beach Body coach says that's worse for me...... says I'm not gonna lose weight that way....
IDK
I'm just so....well so..... UGH!
Help me please.............. words of encouragement....something!
Something to get my mind off all this garbage! haha..no pun intended.... ( Mark is a garbage man )
Another Goal
Well... if you've read my blog you know I've set a few goals for myself.
Now I'm setting another one.
My goal is to fit back into my size 9 jeans.
I have started the Mega-T Green Tea dietary supplement as of yesterday.
Along with taking 1 pill twice a day, I am doing a little bit of exercise 2-3 times per day.
My exercise mostly involves crunches, but I've tried a few other things, like bicycle, side leg raise, scissor legs, and reverse crunches.
This is the 3rd day that I've started exercising daily. I hope to see results sooner rather than later! I'm starting to get the burning sensation when I exercise, so that lets me know I'm doing something right, I've just gotta work through the burn lol.
I've even took a picture of me from the front and one from the side...that way I can keep track of my progress. The last time I weighed myself I was around the 150 mark. I hope to get back down to 120.
My jean size as of right now is like a 14/15. I want to be back to a size 9 at least.
Other than that, I'm working on getting my friends back.
The "one who's name shall remain unmentioned" didn't like that I had male friends...so he made me stop talking to all of them. He told me I didn't know how to draw the line between being friends or more than friends...which of course is NOT true! He was just very insecure :)
Anywho,... I will post another blog later.
Now I'm setting another one.
My goal is to fit back into my size 9 jeans.
I have started the Mega-T Green Tea dietary supplement as of yesterday.
Along with taking 1 pill twice a day, I am doing a little bit of exercise 2-3 times per day.
My exercise mostly involves crunches, but I've tried a few other things, like bicycle, side leg raise, scissor legs, and reverse crunches.
This is the 3rd day that I've started exercising daily. I hope to see results sooner rather than later! I'm starting to get the burning sensation when I exercise, so that lets me know I'm doing something right, I've just gotta work through the burn lol.
I've even took a picture of me from the front and one from the side...that way I can keep track of my progress. The last time I weighed myself I was around the 150 mark. I hope to get back down to 120.
My jean size as of right now is like a 14/15. I want to be back to a size 9 at least.
Other than that, I'm working on getting my friends back.
The "one who's name shall remain unmentioned" didn't like that I had male friends...so he made me stop talking to all of them. He told me I didn't know how to draw the line between being friends or more than friends...which of course is NOT true! He was just very insecure :)
Anywho,... I will post another blog later.
Wednesday, March 30, 2011
Starting Over.....again
Well....I guess I'm starting over again...as of Saturday, March 26, 2011 around 9:00 AM.
My "husband" and I decided to split. Of course he made me make the decision...that way people could feel pity for him. *gags* What is it with guys like that? I don't get it.
Anyway.... so I'm starting over. I did love him, I thought he was the one, but apparently God has bigger and better plans for me...so... I'm not gonna grieve too much over him. I'm going to look forward to what God has in store for me.
So...here's to starting over...again :) *cheers*
First, I'm looking for a job. I hope to have one very soon. I'm putting in applications like crazy. So far I've filled out 7 .
Second, I plan to get a car...you know...cause I don't have one anymore, thanks to the " soon to be ex husband". He totaled mine Feb. 25th on the interstate...
Third, I plan to get a place of my own to live. Something for me and the boys. I want to be independent for once in my life and not have to worry about who's gonna take care of me or worry about pleasing someone else. I'm doing this for me...and my boys of course. I can't wait to be on my own again... I mean don't get me wrong, I love my parents and am so thankful for them letting me live with them again...but it's just not the same...you kinda feel less like an adult when you live with your parents....
Fourth, I might think about putting myself back on the market.... right now, I don't want any kind of a commitment. I'm tired of getting hurt. I'm tired of letting myself get hurt. So...for now...it's all about me, me, me ... and my boys :) I want them to be just as happy as I am...and I don't need some guy in my life to make us happy. When I find the right one...that's just a plus in life.
Well.... I guess that's all for now... those are my main goals right now. God will provide. I know that. I have no doubt. I just have to be patient and know that God is gonna provide on his own time...when he knows I'm ready. Just because I think I'm ready doesn't mean that I am...I've found that out the hard way..esp in love.
Toodles!
My "husband" and I decided to split. Of course he made me make the decision...that way people could feel pity for him. *gags* What is it with guys like that? I don't get it.
Anyway.... so I'm starting over. I did love him, I thought he was the one, but apparently God has bigger and better plans for me...so... I'm not gonna grieve too much over him. I'm going to look forward to what God has in store for me.
So...here's to starting over...again :) *cheers*
First, I'm looking for a job. I hope to have one very soon. I'm putting in applications like crazy. So far I've filled out 7 .
Second, I plan to get a car...you know...cause I don't have one anymore, thanks to the " soon to be ex husband". He totaled mine Feb. 25th on the interstate...
Third, I plan to get a place of my own to live. Something for me and the boys. I want to be independent for once in my life and not have to worry about who's gonna take care of me or worry about pleasing someone else. I'm doing this for me...and my boys of course. I can't wait to be on my own again... I mean don't get me wrong, I love my parents and am so thankful for them letting me live with them again...but it's just not the same...you kinda feel less like an adult when you live with your parents....
Fourth, I might think about putting myself back on the market.... right now, I don't want any kind of a commitment. I'm tired of getting hurt. I'm tired of letting myself get hurt. So...for now...it's all about me, me, me ... and my boys :) I want them to be just as happy as I am...and I don't need some guy in my life to make us happy. When I find the right one...that's just a plus in life.
Well.... I guess that's all for now... those are my main goals right now. God will provide. I know that. I have no doubt. I just have to be patient and know that God is gonna provide on his own time...when he knows I'm ready. Just because I think I'm ready doesn't mean that I am...I've found that out the hard way..esp in love.
Toodles!
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